I was pushing Rory through Best Buy in the stroller. I looked down and her arms were out and shaking.  At first I said “What are you doing, goofball?”  But they kept going.  I went to the front of the stroller and her whole body was shaking and her eyes were rolling up into her head.  I got her out of the stroller as fast as I could and held her.  All I could think to do was try to bring her out of it.  I just said “Baby, it’s okay, it’s okay” over and over again.  After a minute she threw up all over me, but still wasn’t right.  I started running toward the entrance, I was going to get the car and bring her to the hospital.

By the time I got to the front of the store, she was completely white and her lips were purple.  She wasn’t breathing right.  I was freaking out.  I stopped and told the women at the register that I needed help.  They called 911 for me and let me call Jill.  Rory threw up on me again and then kind of went limp.  I was freaking out.

The emergency unit was there in minutes.  In the meantime, some extremely kind people stopped to help me.  I think there were a few Best Buy staff and a couple of passerbys.  By this time, the seizure and vomiting had stopped, but Rory was just kind of staring at the ceiling with her mouth hanging open.  All I could do was hold her close and keep talking to her.

They took us to the hospital in the ambulance.  I had to hold an oxygen mask to her face on the way over.  That woke her up a bit and she got more responsive.  Jill was by our side before the ER had finished checking us in.  Rory took a short nap on Jill and then woke up ready to go.  She started running around the waiting room and talking a little bit.

We spent a few hours in the ER and for the most part, Rory was bored out of her mind I think.  She was definitely in a bad mood.  They told us the seizure was really just a result of a fever spiking.  It’s good to hear, but I’m still pretty scared.  When Jill was pregnant, I had a break down at one point because I was afraid Rory would inherit my epilepsy and I really didn’t know how we would deal with it.  This brought that feeling back even though I do trust what the doctor was telling us.   I’m certainly going to be watching her closely.

I’ve been crying on and off since it happened, certainly less today than yesterday.  Sleeping was fitful last night as well.  Every time I closed my eyes I saw my baby girl shaking and felt completely helpless.  It was truly the worst and scariest moment of my life.